November 2010
1 post
I've finally done it.
your out of my life. and i feel nothing. no wanting to see you.. no intense grieving. you really were horrible and you killed my self esteem for about a yer and a half.
i have found some one so amazing. can’t believe what i’ve been missing out on. I HATE YOU! the end..
April 2010
1 post
Dear Tumblr, Please save me some how from the incredible amount of filling that is staring at me visiously waiting to be done.
Also, may i suddenly become ill and unable to complete the rest of the day. Thank dick i only have to work until 3 today, cos i am literally falling asleep at my desk.
March 2010
29 posts
You really are always, always on my mind. No wonder I’ve lost it.
I have come to the conclusion
That i probably won’t ever be happy with you again. its all to complicated. you hurt me on a much too regular basis..There are little spurts of happiness when i think your back to caring about me like you used to, but really we’ve lost our spark. The fun, the mystery.
Honestly this saddens me so deeply I hate you.. i really do, so why can’t i just ignore you?
“Do you have any idea why a raven is like a writting desk?”
I'm happy again
But only after one night of perfection. Soon you’ll revert back to your ways and wear my hearts emotional strenght out. I hate that i like you so much that after one amazing hang i forget about how shit you treat me and instently like you all over again. I was doing well hating you too. Now you’ve hooked me in for the 354651561651651651 time. I FUCKING HATE YOU!
February 2010
1 post
you honestly
Kill me. I can’t do it for much longer. Your indifferent, mellowed, couldn’t-give-a-shit attitude is seriously making me lose my mind. Please just stop. Just care for me like you used to.. I really can’t do this anymore. Your crushing me
November 2009
3 posts
October 2009
16 posts
you know that i could use some body
some one like you.
tumblr. is the cure to my insomnia.
best weekend away, awful arrival home. i wish it could just repeat maybe six times over, but perhaps this time we cut the part where leave you out? bleh. everyone leaves me.
Sometimes,
the thought of losing you scares me so much that i start to cry. i know you’ll get over it one day. with the distance and all. the horrible thing is just anticipating the day that i just won’t be exciting enough anymore. Sometimes i wish that i just didn’t have a brain that could think about everything in such depth.
“Do you have a dollar, do you have a dollar for me?”
Things i've done.
Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Been dumped. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college level...
you know what?
i feel really, really let down. i can’t believe how this has played out. thought the reactions and actions to deal with it would’ve been different.